Clearly written from a wonderful understanding and lived experience, rather than just having been read and intellectually studied, after analysis and interpretation of some random texts through a rational, and ultimately inaccurate emotional mind.
The Plant like other Entheogenic aids allows the rational mind to be silenced in a way that our internal wisdom takes over without a filter of conceptual thinking.
Every form of fragmentation can then effectively fall away or fade into an undifferentiated unity.
It can feel akin to opening our eyes and seeing for the very first time. We become completely aware and in addition to the usual nonsensory apprehension of reality we can take in and understand new found levels of extraordinary awareness, without the need for analysis or interpretation.
This is an excellent essay on depression. Having struggled with it on and off for years, I found exactly what you stated - parts of myself that needed reintegration into my being. They needed acceptance and love, and I needed to learn to fully love all the parts of me. Spirituality played a vital part for me also, knowing that I am unconditionally loved and accepted by a higher power helped me to get there. Thank you for this thoughtful piece ♥️
I'm so glad to hear that it resonated for you, Korie. It's been the same for me -- the knowing that the greatest of all forces loves me unconditionally has been a huge driver in my healing.
This is one of the clearest articulations of the bell jar experience I’ve read. The way you describe “quiet quitting life” landed hard. That passive indifference, the sense that nothing external could touch what was wrong, feels painfully accurate for a kind of depression that doesn’t announce itself loudly.
The line “the opposite of depression is not happiness, it’s expression” feels like a key that unlocks the entire essay. This doesn’t read as an argument against medicine or therapy so much as a refusal to let relief be mistaken for resolution. Thank you for naming the struggle without bypassing the dirt, the exhaustion, or the responsibility to keep digging.
You are right, JC. Two recent journeys introduced me to Shadow. The first one unlocked and cracked open the closet door into which I'd been throwing shit into for 60 years. The second one blew open the dark ball encasing the deep shame and sorrow of being a cruel and critical and spirit-crushing husband for 23 years and dumping the detritus on my children. That experience of wailing and sobbing apologies showed me the true nature of Shadow - - holder of deep and necessary truths, restorer of leaked personal power, path to mature spiritual development. Big and necessary work for my last years. Clear, fearless intents.
Beautifully articulated, Dennis. I'm so glad you are entering these portals now, it is never too late, and your kids will still benefit greatly from your journey 🥰
“… you eventually find parts that have been left behind down there, buried alive.” THIS! So perfectly explained. Plant medicine opened me up to trauma that I didn’t even know I had and thus changed my life forever, for the better. And you are right - there is still so much work to do. But it is worth every moment, because now I’m really living! Bless you and the work you do.🙏
Beautiful piece Julia.
Clearly written from a wonderful understanding and lived experience, rather than just having been read and intellectually studied, after analysis and interpretation of some random texts through a rational, and ultimately inaccurate emotional mind.
The Plant like other Entheogenic aids allows the rational mind to be silenced in a way that our internal wisdom takes over without a filter of conceptual thinking.
Every form of fragmentation can then effectively fall away or fade into an undifferentiated unity.
It can feel akin to opening our eyes and seeing for the very first time. We become completely aware and in addition to the usual nonsensory apprehension of reality we can take in and understand new found levels of extraordinary awareness, without the need for analysis or interpretation.
Wonderfully Written.
Mark. 🙏
Thank you so much, Mark 🙏
This is an excellent essay on depression. Having struggled with it on and off for years, I found exactly what you stated - parts of myself that needed reintegration into my being. They needed acceptance and love, and I needed to learn to fully love all the parts of me. Spirituality played a vital part for me also, knowing that I am unconditionally loved and accepted by a higher power helped me to get there. Thank you for this thoughtful piece ♥️
I'm so glad to hear that it resonated for you, Korie. It's been the same for me -- the knowing that the greatest of all forces loves me unconditionally has been a huge driver in my healing.
This is one of the clearest articulations of the bell jar experience I’ve read. The way you describe “quiet quitting life” landed hard. That passive indifference, the sense that nothing external could touch what was wrong, feels painfully accurate for a kind of depression that doesn’t announce itself loudly.
The line “the opposite of depression is not happiness, it’s expression” feels like a key that unlocks the entire essay. This doesn’t read as an argument against medicine or therapy so much as a refusal to let relief be mistaken for resolution. Thank you for naming the struggle without bypassing the dirt, the exhaustion, or the responsibility to keep digging.
Thank you so much April for your kind words, I'm so glad to hear it landed for you! Sending love 🫶
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You are right, JC. Two recent journeys introduced me to Shadow. The first one unlocked and cracked open the closet door into which I'd been throwing shit into for 60 years. The second one blew open the dark ball encasing the deep shame and sorrow of being a cruel and critical and spirit-crushing husband for 23 years and dumping the detritus on my children. That experience of wailing and sobbing apologies showed me the true nature of Shadow - - holder of deep and necessary truths, restorer of leaked personal power, path to mature spiritual development. Big and necessary work for my last years. Clear, fearless intents.
Beautifully articulated, Dennis. I'm so glad you are entering these portals now, it is never too late, and your kids will still benefit greatly from your journey 🥰
“… you eventually find parts that have been left behind down there, buried alive.” THIS! So perfectly explained. Plant medicine opened me up to trauma that I didn’t even know I had and thus changed my life forever, for the better. And you are right - there is still so much work to do. But it is worth every moment, because now I’m really living! Bless you and the work you do.🙏
Thank you for the sweet words, Dalia, I so appreciate them 🙏🙏
Love this 🙌
So glad to hear it resonated, Micheal!
Yes! There's a great documentary about this called Crazy Wise, have you seen it?